Honestly, I still don’t know what it means to “go with the flow.” I’ve been confused by that for quite some time. Well, it’s hard to “go with the flow” when you’re not sure what the hell it is exactly. I’ve been trying, but needless to say, I’m not too sure about what I’m doing. Well, I had a slight dilemma in my life, and I found one way to resolve it, but I’m not 100% on-board with that solution. Also, I’m not 100% on-board with remaining in this slight dilemma. I guess since I don’t see a path I like, I’ll create one. Since this is my reality, then I’ll create something I will be more than happy living with. I really do want to learn from this experience, so here goes. Is this going with the flow?
I don’t blame myself for being in this situation and I don’t hate my life for it or anything like that. At this point, I figure that it will be good with me. I guess going with the flow is following what feels good to me? Anyway, I don’t want to totally abandon this situation and I don’t want to indulge in how I feel about it, because I feel like I’m suffering a bit. Well, how about I just not suffer anymore? Why don’t I create a different perspective on the situation. This way, I’ll be happy. The situation will definitely change because my thoughts and feelings toward it will change, so it’s all good, right? I’d say so! As long as I don’t end up feeling regret, pain, or any other negative feeling.
I want to indulge in this situation, but in a way that’s healthy and satisfying for me. Initially, I didn’t feel very safe, but I allowed myself to see the situation in a safe way. What ended up happening was that I attracted more incidents where I felt more comfortable and I didn’t worry about damaging myself or my well-being in any way. Wonderful. Now the situation has gone from pretty dangerous to a bit…uh, tiring. I should figure out what I want from this experience exactly. That would help me a lot as far as improving it goes. The process would be a lot faster this way, too.
Obviously, I don’t want to say what the situation is because I don’t feel it necessary and also this experience affects myself as well as others. Well, I’ll see how this works. Hopefully, it’ll turn out perfectly. I understand how I got into this situation in the first place, and I felt that it was a mistake at first, but now I see otherwise. I have to get into the mindset of believing that everything happens for the best. It’s not fair for me to think that everything that happens in my life is bullshit. So, I must learn something valuable from this, and I believe that I am. If the situation doesn’t improve, then I’ll be sure to write about it later. Otherwise, all is well!
