My life is getting better and worse at the same time, and it’s tiresome and annoying. I will begin working soon, which will help me financially, but the money from this particular job will not be enough to cover all my bills and such. Looking for a second job will be difficult since the economy is in such horrible shape, but I do have an idea as to what other business I could work for. I am so tired of barely getting by, and at this point I’m willing to do almost anything in order to get out of this rut.
I’ve learned a lot during these past several weeks or so. I learned many things about myself and my condition, so now I’m trying to figure out what to do, how to proceed in life. It’s difficult to create a plan when I have my urgent finances to take care of. Quite frankly, I don’t want to deal with my financial problems at all, but I must since my health and credit score depend on it. I have a feeling that this is going to be a slow and draining process. I probably should try to be more positive and rely on my spirituality to help me during this difficult time, but I’m very comfortable being angry and annoyed at the moment. I’m learning to accept and express my thoughts and emotions more, no matter what they are or how they feel. I believe that this will allow me to feel “freer,” which in turn will help me to “allow” more rather than to “resist.”
My life wasn’t really going anywhere, and now I feel like this is another huge setback. There has to be a drastic change, but I’m not sure what to do. Yes, I have an idea, but I’m not entirely sure about the details yet. Still, however, I have to figure out what I’m going to do until then.
